There's nothing like being so disconnected from your body that you can spend a whole night really uncomfortable with very little sleep and not realise you have an abdominal #migraine until less than 5 minutes before you're dry retching at 6am.
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You can’t just go back to that version of yourself (the pre-burnout self, the one who had energy, and could do all of the things, and be a workaholic, or change the world, or whatever it was).
That version of yourself wasn’t living in a healthy way, it was ignoring your own needs.
I'm so autistic I just worked out I would like more touch after two years without a partner by imagining a switch where I can have somebody nice hold me and that seemed nice.
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I keep breaking shit. Literally and metaphorically. And then I want to feel better, so I run to some other shit. And then I break that too because I'm impatient and distracted by my feelings of loss from the last thing.
I'm trying to escape this cycle with video games (possibility of success without possibility of meaningful failure)... but Veilguard is making it hard to give a shit.
I'm sure that the satirical take of The Kinks on the staid British lifestyle -for example- A well respected man- was helpful for me in rejecting conventionality.
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In about 2000 my friend and his brother told me Adamski used to live on the council estate I lived on. I just listened to one of his songs so looked him up. It seems exceptionally unlikely. I never properly believed this, but at the time, kind of did.
This is the gullibility of autistic people.
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When I live in the real world of “here’s how I actually function”, and “here’s what I actually need”, I don’t feel as bad and I can use all the energy for doing other stuff or resting.
One of people illegally deported to the El Salvador max security prison was a baker who's one of his three tattoos is an autism awareness ribbon with his 15 year old autistic brother’s name.
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When I engage with somebody who I like I feel like it is there are two possibilities there is the "agree" and be polite or find a consensus view, and then there is actually being honest and telling them what I think and I don't know if there is any space between those two. #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @actuallyautistic #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic
I have reasons to believe my sister in law's father *might* be autistic.
Then my half nephew is diagnosed autistic, and my nephew is probably autistic from everything I can see.
Families huh. Can't choose then, can probably diagnose then.
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I feel like the basics of looking after my kids (who are here half the time) keep me in burnout and takes all my spoons.
My daughter kept coming in last night until after midnight because she couldn't sleep.
My son just started screaming for me in the shower because there was a spider in the room.
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I'm fine by myself, but I have slight knowledge that people will judge me for being a loser for spending time by myself.
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I'm finding it hard to hear people today and I'm sure it's auditory processing difficulties.
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I went to visit someone in hospital today, and before I went I had to do a lot of planning. I checked my route, worked out carefully where I could park and I was still nervous walking up to the building. I ended up having a migraine later on, probably from the stress of that but also maybe walking around on a hot day.
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Today has been a rough one, but I can really see and feel that I'm getting better at getting myself through them. It seems, at least at this stage, that it was always about learning how to get through with minimal damage and not about eliminating these days where my brain experiences almost everything as negative, painful, overwhelming, or overstimulating.
I'm navigating and talking to myself in a much truer and more honest way than ever before. and everything I keep learning (or re-learning?) feels ridiculously obvious.
It's like #ArthurKoestler said, “some of the greatest discoveries... consist mainly in the clearing away of psychological roadblocks which obstruct the approach to reality; which is why, post factum, they appear so obvious.”
Or #Jung when he said “we don't so much solve our problems as we outgrow them.”
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Relieving cognitive dissonance is a major source of energy gain. One of the biggest ones in my experience.
I was just wondering, is there a link between migraine and autistic shutdown? I can't find anything in the literature, but I feel it's an idea to explore.
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Some of us learn as small babies that there’s no point in crying because we won’t be answered, so we go quiet.
Autist menstruist, do you perceive yourself as having a worse experience of menstruation than allistic people? #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @actuallyautistic #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic #lgbtqi #trans
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